September 28, 2008
Weekly Anamnesis: Realized
In my twenties, I latched onto a fantasy that one day I would confront Sue on Oprah.
I imagined telling my story in front of the whole country. Who could fail to sympathize? And Sue would never be able to show her face in public again. This time, everyone would know exactly what kind of person she was, and she’d never be able to hurt anyone else.
I held onto this fantasy for a few years, until the day I asked her “Why? Why would you do that to your children?” At that moment I realized that there was nothing—nothing—she could say that would ever make any of it better. And inexplicably a big chunk of the burden I carried melted away. Just like that. I haven’t seen that part since.
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You are right. First it probably would have played out like a one-way Jerry Springer show. Of course she would have been the one-way, but really, she couldn’t say anything to erase it, or make it understandable or anything. And she wouldn’t anyway.
I’m glad it melted away. Some things aren’t worth keeping.
No one can tell us, will us, pray us or wish upon us this priceless self-awareness. Within you is absolutely everything you need to realize your dreams- just like this - when you are ready you just open your hand and there it is. You are beautiful and such a gift of healing to others. I love reading Thursday Drive and through Jennifer I have found you. There are no coincidences are there? Namaste.