Hints and Guesses

Being jobless isn’t half bad, except for the no-money-coming-in part. Tomorrow will be three weeks since the first time I ever got fired, and I still don’t have a job.

There’s no doubt that any one of you looking at all I’ve accomplished over the last three weeks wouldn’t wait to roll your eyes before kicking me in the butt. I’d kick my butt too, if I were you. Since I am not, I have decided to create some ambition for myself this week, and I’m going to tell you all about it so that you can ask me about it later.

Here goes:

• Write morning pages. Every morning. First thing in the morning.
• Walk. One hour. Every morning after morning pages.
• Take a shower. Pretend I’m going to work.
• Look for that one job. The timing for the one I’d like isn’t working out, but I’ve made contact. Apply for those other jobs that aren’t exactly the one I’d like but will do for now.
• Blog about what I’ve done. Here. Every day.
• Eat well. Some. Not a lot. My body tells me it would like to keep all incoming calories. It can have them, but it will be getting fewer of them.
• Stay on my current limited email and feed reader schedule. Once every four hours. Five minutes with new feeds.

That’s all the ambition I can manufacture at the moment. I could add to the list, but then it would all seem impossibly hard.